The Beginning

As cliched as it may sound... the first step in changing is accepting that you want to change. I am here to make this happen. I have decided to put out a better life for myself... and well I'm going for it.

First- I have accepted that a lot things have been making me feel bad. They make me feel like a not so great person, even though they really aren't such bad things, but I have decided that they must go.

Part of this changing occurred because I wasn't a good enough person, that I was such a terrible person. I know that I am not perfect, but it seem that I was feeling like the worst person in the world. These feeling although really negative, helped make me realize that in order to be a better person, I have to make it happen and change. I want to be a better person. I don't want to think that people may have misunderstood me and thought I meant something mean when I spoke, because that is never what I intend. I try to be nice but the even the best of intentions can across incorrectly. Even if I did try to be nice I want to be even better than that. I want to the best person possible. I am going to change to make that happen.

TV- It was the first to go. I personally was a TV addict, but the more I watched the worse I felt, so I said it had to go. About a week ago I stopped, and it was hard, but if I can make it one week I can keep going.

GYM- I had heard that reducing negativity can help. It's better for me, and it can a person seem happier. I heard that going to the gym can improve you mood and eventually make you more positive, so I've started going. I am making goals, so I can achieve something. I am not going out of a concern for my weight, but rather so I can be in good physical condition. This is for me and not anyone else. I started going about two weeks ago. It started with just jogging 2 miles on the elliptical, but then I wanted to achieve more. I told myself I can and kept going. I hit 6.5 miles and then 7.5 miles on the elliptical in the past week, and I am going to keep going until I hit 10 miles and just keep going and going. I am going to make this happen.

ME- So I am not the most outgoing person, and I hate that. I want to be the positive person with the magnetic personality. I am making the goal for myself to start at least one conversation with someone every week. This may not seem like much, but generally, I wait for the other person to start, because I am afraid. But I will not be afraid anymore. I want to make this happen, so it will happen.

Other- I want to my work skills. i want to work harder than I have ever worked before, and I will make this happen. I will. I will dedicate myself to it completely.

Hopefully, things will change. I will update with progress. I will be a better version of myself.

"when it's time to change..."

"When it's time to change, then its time to change
Don't fight the tide, come along for the ride, don't you see
When it's time to change, you've got to rearrange
who you are into what you're gonna be."

Yes indeed these are those lyrics from that catchy Brady Bunch song,
but they do have a point. When it's time to change, well it's time
to change.I felt that this was a rather fitting song and intro
to this blog.

So, I like many others out have decided to finally change. To battle
the gripping fear and hopefully make changes for the better.
I no longer want to see back and watch my life change for the worse.
I am going to make this happen, and well
this blog will helpfully show my progress.

So here's to it. We shall see what will come...

PS The web address number is the time I started the blog